- Peace for Shawn and I, for Kyle and Miranda and Braden and Connor, for our parents and siblings and nieces and nephews and inner circle friends watching and hurting as we go through this
- that God would keep soft our children's hearts toward Him through all the emotions of this hard journey
- strength and stamina; physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
- that the cancer shrinks to gone, gone, gone!
- gentle side effects to this second round of chemo
- family unity, harmony, love, strength, joy, happiness
- anything else you feel God puts on your heart

Saturday, March 8, 2014

A Daddy's Heart

"I will never leave you or forsake you!"

That is Gods promise to us all, if we trust Him. And we have felt the prayers of all our friends carry us through each moment , and felt we were never alone. Fact is, I know it won't be that long until Kristin meets me at those pearly gates, although I am in no hurry, nor do I want to leave the rest of my family and friends, the reality is, I will come to that time, sooner than many of you,that I also will pass away. The only guarantee we have in this world, is death.
After Kristin left us, our hearts were so torn, so ripped apart. My human expression of tears, never fixed my feeling of the vacuum inside. The friends and relatives loving on me through this time, has cushioned the hurt, yet many times each day, and in the middle of the night, the tears just flow without warning. It is so hard to be up, feel like talking, and for me that is totally out of character, and difficult to find the ability to focus on anything for very long. To watch TV, Olympics or anything, just has no importance, nor gives me much satisfaction. A bit like living in a fog and unable to assert your mind.
My thoughts go to the past 15 months, the hard days, but more and more, the good times and memories. And most important, my family, Shawn, my other daughters and husbands, and the nine grandkids, all trying to handle their emotional roller coaster, keep me trying to look ahead, something we have been unable to do in this past. Many lessons of life we have learned with Kris, continue to push us to be better, more caring, and most important, keep from being too busy, yet staying focused on each other, family, friends and strangers we bump into along our journey. 
Yes, all our days are numbered, but while we are here, each of us can choose to help make a positive difference to all we come in contact with and those we go out of our way to help.
Thank You, to all of you, that took time from your busy lives, to pray for, comfort, feed, give in so many ways, just to love on us in your own special way, we are, and feel soooo blessed by you all, and we as a family, have been praying all along this journey, that God would bless each of you in return.
Love Kristin's dad


  1. So much love between a Dad and his daughter. My prayer for all of us who loved Kristin is that our broken hearts would heal and that we would never forget all the things that we learned from her. A special hug sent out to Kristin's amazing and loving Dad!!

  2. Beautiful....just so touching and beautiful...miss her dearly.....(hugs)

  3. As tears stream down my face they are hard to justify, happy that you've shared such a great bond and love and so incredibly sad that you (and we) miss her so incredibly much. We will be united again with that infectious laugh, beautiful smile and amazing heart. Thank you for sharing your heart today Dad and another piece of Kristin. Love to you all. xoxo

  4. I've never met you, Kristin's dad, but please accept my hug.

  5. Not a day goes by that we don't grieve for you & pray for you... xoxo

  6. Jerry, we are continuing to pray for you and Evelyn, my twins, and all of the extended family. I cant imagine the hurt of losing a child. Kristin was an amazing woman who touched so many lives in such a powerful and loving way. She was an encouragement to so many. An inspiration.

  7. What a beautiful treasure of Dad and his daughter! Grieving with such a loss definitely sets us apart from feeling focused for long with all the earthly things, from TV, Olympics, whatever had stayed upon our minds before, which on a positive side helps us to remain what's true to the real values of reminiscing on good times spent together and future times ahead both still here on earth and in eternity in Heaven one day... God bless you all!

  8. Tears are flowing as I read this blog. Grief is such a hard journey with no short cuts. Sometimes it just feels like your loved one has been ripped away and left you so empty. I have to believe that God makes no mistakes. Your children are always your children no matter how old they get and then the grandchildren come along and you fall in love with them. I hold onto the memory when I spotted Kristen in Canadian tire, we were both there getting the specials. We spotted each other and wrapped our arms around each other and I said, I love you Kristen...That memory is forever implanted in my heart. Just know am in prayer for you Jerry and raised a beautiful daughter inside a out and her life is still touching hearts..Edna


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