- Peace for Shawn and I, for Kyle and Miranda and Braden and Connor, for our parents and siblings and nieces and nephews and inner circle friends watching and hurting as we go through this
- that God would keep soft our children's hearts toward Him through all the emotions of this hard journey
- strength and stamina; physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
- that the cancer shrinks to gone, gone, gone!
- gentle side effects to this second round of chemo
- family unity, harmony, love, strength, joy, happiness
- anything else you feel God puts on your heart

Friday, January 3, 2014


On Christmas Eve our family lost a dear cousin when Naomi passed away unexpectedly.  I was crushed and heartbroken and devastated by her death. I am heartbroken for Auntie Sharon and Uncle Norm and Naomi's brothers and the family.  I can't believe she is gone.  

My overwhelming back pain, the overwhelming jostling of my emotions between 'grateful to be alive for one more Christmas after cancer' and 'will this be my last Christmas', and then the overwhelming loss of a cousin I felt close to... It has just been a lot.  And when you can't cry because it hurts your ribs or sends your lungs to spasm... It just makes the processing that much harder. Tomorrow is the memorial for Naomi.  I am unable to attend because I will be at chemo.  Chemo.

Today we found out that my Uncle Alf has passed away (same side of the family, my Mom's side, Naomi's uncle-by-marriage).  Unexpected.  Sad news.  Again. I am heartbroken for my Auntie Mart and her family as they wrap their heads around this and transition to life without Uncle Alf.  He used to eat the ants off the picnic table when we went camping... for pretend... I think.  lol

Lord, we know these two have peace and rest in heaven with you.  We ask for your peace to us as we mourn. 

I don't want to answer the phone anymore. 


  1. I keep asking how much sad can one family endure? Kris, all I can say is dry your tears and keep fighting...your smile thru pain and your positive outlook is such a powerful are my hero...I have no other words...praying for you every single day...


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