Tonight.

Feeling some rested, a little less weak than this morning.  Cried my way through the day.  Just tears and random tears.  Got some of the emotions out.  Ready for a new day.  Ready to smile and celebrate... tentatively.  Still not sure how I feel about all this birthday.  But will smile.  Every day there is reason to smile.  Thank you to those who have prayed me through today.  It was a hard day, I won't lie.  Just so much gratefulness to be here, so much confusion as to what the heck is going on.  I still am just shocked that I have cancer and this all has happened and is happening and we have months to go.  That's a huge bit to ward off and fight away.  Get behind me, Satan, you shall not prevail because Jesus never fails.  Today got better.  I made it through my injection.  I felt giddy when it was done.  I slept.  Our family hung out and watched food tv together... C cracked us up with his randomness, B cracked us up with moaning at the food on the food shows.  People sneaking around doing projects.  I have long said, in reply to a comment, "One day at a time", that it's "one moment at a time, and some moments last longer than others, but it's all but a moment... good or bad..." and I am thankful for that philosophy, it does me well to remember through each day.

Thank you for your prayers.  Thank you.  Sincerely.