Tired

I did not sleep well last night.  The weather was perfectly cooled so I should have slept well.  Shawn took the winter duvet off the bed... I need the weight of it.  Also, last night we were making plans for next week which included a brief discussion on childcare during my oncology appointment.  So as soon as I woke up to pee at 5am my thoughts turned to the CT and fear came and got a grip on my heart and mind.  I prayed, God gave me a miracle... the ringing in my ears (chemo side effect) started up and I asked God to please stop it and He did, in that instant.  So it was cool to lay there and sing praises in my exhaustion because that was a direct and immediate answer to prayer.  And then my thoughts turned to "He's got this, Kristin" and while I was still clinging to that fear for some reason,  I felt more calm and eventually was able to eventually fall back to sleep.  This morning I am exhausted.  Busy week since the kids got out of school, yesterday was an excellent and accomplished-stuff day, tomorrow is my brother-in-law's wedding.  My emotions are spent and my energy is a little low.  My tooth has an absess (remember that tooth that was troublesome on and off during chemo?) so I'm on a prescription that is new to me and will cause diarrhea and gut ache so I'm tense about that.

Not complaining, just documenting. 

I know that today will be a good day ... I just need to finish waking up.  Today is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.   I have enjoyed so much quality time with each of the kids, and with the four of them as a whole, this week... I love that I see it and recognize it and noticed it and savoured it.  But wow, I'm tired... recovery is still slow in some areas.  Oh, and last night we went for a huuuge walk after dinner so my body is feeling it for sure.  LOL

Have a great day... it's Friday!!!!