Spent the day at the lake with my sisters and their families and the sand and the sun. Was a lovely and relaxed day. Yesterday we arrived home from a week of camping, that was a good week, too. I don't think I'm in denial, but I just don't know what to say so it is easier to just not say much of anything. Definitely drawing into myself right now. Keep reaching out to me, okay? And definitely keep praying. God is taking care of us and I still believe He has miracles and miracles and miracles for us... the best one is that His peace is very present in our lives.
Cute moment this morning with C (6yrs) at the grocery store today: We were walking through the store and I was about four paces ahead of him. He is a chatter-er and was keeping up a dialogue that I wasn't following. He said, "I'm not alone, Mommy", "did you know there is someone with me?" I turned and said, "Pardon?" His reply, pointing to the air beside him, "See that there is someone beside me? Did you know that someone is beside me?.... do you know who is beside me? Do you know that someone is always beside me?" Me, "Oh, ya?" Him, "Yes, see, it's Jesus, Jesus is always beside me, that's what they told me (in Sunday School)!" Me, "You're right, C, isn't that awesome? That Jesus is always with us? He is always right beside us." God blessing me through my baby-boy-six-years-old. [humbled]
And He is. Thank you, Lord, thank you so much for being right with me, us, always.
I have peace. I have tears if I think even a day ahead. I really am just living in the moments. God is with me. [smile]
Grateful for silver linings, one of which is how family and friends are gathering around us in prayer and with offers of support. Cancer is a lot of hard things. It is already proving to be a lot of connecting with loved ones and strengthening of relationships and that is so, so good.
PRAYER REQUESTS
PRAYER REQUESTS
- Peace for Shawn and I, for Kyle and Miranda and Braden and Connor, for our parents and siblings and nieces and nephews and inner circle friends watching and hurting as we go through this
- that God would keep soft our children's hearts toward Him through all the emotions of this hard journey
- strength and stamina; physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
- that the cancer shrinks to gone, gone, gone!
- gentle side effects to this second round of chemo
- family unity, harmony, love, strength, joy, happiness
- anything else you feel God puts on your heart
- Peace for Shawn and I, for Kyle and Miranda and Braden and Connor, for our parents and siblings and nieces and nephews and inner circle friends watching and hurting as we go through this
- that God would keep soft our children's hearts toward Him through all the emotions of this hard journey
- strength and stamina; physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
- that the cancer shrinks to gone, gone, gone!
- gentle side effects to this second round of chemo
- family unity, harmony, love, strength, joy, happiness
- anything else you feel God puts on your heart
Yesterday I found myself having the same feelings as you. I opened up my 'Jesus Calling' and read...
ReplyDelete'Do not worry about tomorrow. This is not a suggestion, but a command. I divided time into days and nights, so that you would have manageable portions of life to handle. My grace is sufficient for you, but it's sufficiency is for only one day at a time...'.
Thank you Jesus for your promise. Thank you that we have little reminders along the way... sometimes from the mouths of babes!
Love you Kris!
Feeling the same way... there just aren't words. So Thankful for that Peace.
ReplyDeleteI opened my Jesus calling to the same message this morning, even took a picture of it so I could read it again during the day.
"When you worry about the future, you heap day upon day of troubles onto your flimsy frame. You stagger under this heavy load, which I never intended you to carry.
... as you thus affirm your Faith, shackles of worry fall of instantly. Enjoy My Presence continually by trusting Me at all times"
I was reading this (Jesus calling) too, and thought of you and your whole family. I'm still praying and thinking of you every day. Would love to see you sometime this summer :) hugs, Devana
ReplyDeleteI haven't opened my 'Jesus Calling' this week but goodness, aren't those words just perfect or what?! I'm always blown away at the daily passages which simply confirm and repeat that Jesus' gift to us is his presence. We don't have to worry or fret when we simply rest in his arms.
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