We told the kids tonight, they were devastated. The cries quickly turned to worries about me dying and all I could feel was hollow as I searched for words and we talked about heaven and I assured our six years old that I would, indeed, find him when he was an old, old grandpa and he died and in the next instant would be in heaven. And I prayed for them and over them. And we thanked God for this amazing family of six we are, and for our grandmas and grandpas and aunties and uncles and cousins and friends who love us dearly. And we asked for peace and thanked God for His peace and His love. Eventually we were distracted by dinner and bedtime routine. The little boys seemed fairly okay. Our daughter seems sad. Our eldest went to youth group at church.
Hard news. Scary to think that this actually could kill me. Hope and peace and love are here. We believe for miracles and we pray for peace and for healing. I pray that Shawn will be okay and that our kids will keep soft their hearts to God.
I told the kids, "I am the same mommy today as I was yesterday." I assured them I am not dying today or the next day. I can't promise anything more, that is hard for this momma, to not be able to calm their fears. We sat together, the six of us, in our living room, cuddled on the couches, feeling the emotions, soaking in the love.
What more can we do, really? It is what it is. Please, continue to pray for us.
Prayers never ceasing. And love unending. Xox
ReplyDeleteSending a blanket of prayers to surround you and your family. Believing in miracles with you!! Love you!
ReplyDeleteA tough day and more to follow. But God is not surprised and He will be with you... each of you...always.
ReplyDeleteBlown away by your courage and strength. Will continue to pray...that really goes without saying. Keep your chin up Kristin....the future is in God's hands and \He loves you more than anyone can in this world.
ReplyDeletePraying for you always. Hoping and believing for a miracle and knowing that God has a marvelous plan for your life. Hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteYou are a very strong woman, I am praying for you & your family, daily to keep up the strength needed to get you through this next "bump" in the road.
ReplyDeleteLord God, in the name of your son, Jesus - who's stripes have conquered disease and sickness ... I stand before you and ask, right now, that your Holy Spirit would be made known in a very tangible way. Oh God, that Your divine plan would stomp on the enemy's plans to steal, kill and destroy. Lord I ask for super-natural wisdom for Kristin's medical team. Lord, that they would have opened eyes and mind to Your infinite knowledge. Holy Spirit, cover the Erickson family - give them joy that overflows ... not because this is an easy experience, but because YOU are the source of joy. You, oh God, are the source of LIFE and life abundantly ... I pray this life into their home, into their walls, into their bodies, into their souls ... Protect their minds, protect their souls ... oh God, doubt and confusion - I speak to them in Jesus name and demand them to be replaced with peace and calm. With reassurance that the Father has not forgotten them. Lord, I ask that an army would continue to rise and stand with Shawn and Kristin - that their needs would be met in abundance and that these beautiful children would see YOU in those around them. I pray in expectation of these things and more, oh Lord. AMEN. and amen and amen. xo
ReplyDeleteWe.ll never stop praying kristen,all our love cam
ReplyDeleteKristen, I am in Vancouver and cancer agency is 10 min walk away. If you want someone to sit with you when you are alone; I am available.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear your news. Fatidjah Nestman
You are loved and cared for, and prayed for by so many. You are a strong woman and a strong family.
ReplyDeletePraying with you!
ReplyDeleteWe will continue to hold you and your family up in prayer, Kristin.
ReplyDelete"But you, God, shield me on all sides;
You ground my feet, you lift my head high;
With all my might I shout up to God,
His answers thunder from the holy mountain." Psalm 3:3-4 (MSG)
Kristin, continuing to keep you and all your family in our prayers. So sorry to hear that these latest test results didn't bring good news. Praying for strength and courage for you as you prepare to go through chemo again.
ReplyDeleteContinuing to pray pray pray! Arabella prays for you too!
ReplyDeleteDevastating. I pray for your complete and total healing and that your kids will not live in fear. Love and prayers.
ReplyDeletePraying for you & your family daily for God's peace, comfort, strength, and HOPE in the days ahead. hugs! Devana
ReplyDeleteStrong prayer warriors here... We will continually make a stand with you every day!!!!
ReplyDeleteWe love you so much, you have always been an inspiration to me as a mom of four.
Xo the Deans
So sorry to hear your news and shed tears to think about you and your kids' feelings. We continue to pray for you and your family. Sending hugs. Miwa
ReplyDeleteWe are praying. May you feel loved and supported as your army of friends of family mobilize to support you on every way possible.
ReplyDeleteJust know we love you and are in prayer for you and your family, strength for each day, we pray for a miracle for you Kristen....
ReplyDeleteWith love and prayers, Edna
I'm so saddened by this news. I will continue to pray for your healing and for your family.
ReplyDeleteKim Rogers
I am so sorry to hear this news Kristin....I am always thinking of you and your family.
ReplyDeleteLiz Laturnus