- Peace for Shawn and I, for Kyle and Miranda and Braden and Connor, for our parents and siblings and nieces and nephews and inner circle friends watching and hurting as we go through this
- that God would keep soft our children's hearts toward Him through all the emotions of this hard journey
- strength and stamina; physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
- that the cancer shrinks to gone, gone, gone!
- gentle side effects to this second round of chemo
- family unity, harmony, love, strength, joy, happiness
- anything else you feel God puts on your heart

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Just add life

Amazing how one instant can turn me from looking forward to a day to pissy about everything. Emotions are high. Disappointments are high. Lonely is high in certain areas of my life. And I am human. I want things to go my way. In fact, after six hard and gross chemo-sick days, apparently I feel that I "deserve" to get my way in this moment (know that "deserve" is a a word I have almost fully stricken from my consciousness, I don't believe in "deserve" for the most part). So immature of me. Most days I feel successful In maintaining positive. In this moment, I'm trying to keep my emotional mouth shut while this moment passes through.


  1. Realized my attitude is me questioning God's timing. Had a talk with my Lord. Laid it down at His feet. Feeling better. Glad He loves me even in my crazy.

  2. And the day just kept getting harder, tears and tears flowing, just overwhelmed by the realities of oncology appointment and thrombosis doctor phone call and so much more to get through. Feeling blue.

  3. Boo for these moments, esp when they seem to last forever. Prayers for a good night sleep and an easier ability to process & sit with things tomorrow.
    Love you lots & sending endless heart hugs...

  4. Hi Kristen, I follow Les Brown on FB. I thought you might enjoy his word today.

    "You've taken a hit. Life has knocked you down, but you are not knocked out. You have more going for you than you realize. Others might laugh, and say you're through. But they don't know you like that. You have the ability to pull victory from the jaws of defeat! Now is the time for you to gather your wits; clear your head and mind; and dig down deep. Resolve to unleash your creative energy, unstoppable attitude and resourcefulness.

    This is your time and your moment to prove to yourself and to everyone else who you really are. You have the power to change your circumstances; to change your finances; to love again; to rebuild relationships; and to create your own job or business. You have the power to open the doors of possibility, and move your life forward. You have the power within you because you have something have GREATNESS within you!" ~ Les Brown

  5. Hoping today is better for you, having some (or lots!!) of emotions myself :(

  6. You are in my thoughts and payers tonight.


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