- Peace for Shawn and I, for Kyle and Miranda and Braden and Connor, for our parents and siblings and nieces and nephews and inner circle friends watching and hurting as we go through this
- that God would keep soft our children's hearts toward Him through all the emotions of this hard journey
- strength and stamina; physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
- that the cancer shrinks to gone, gone, gone!
- gentle side effects to this second round of chemo
- family unity, harmony, love, strength, joy, happiness
- anything else you feel God puts on your heart

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Time Contraints

I feel pressured to 'get things done' around the house.  I was supposed to be graduating this (just past) spring.  I was supposed to take that time between my last course and walking the stage to get the house in order after transitioning our last kid into school and transitioning myself from university student to mom to working mom.   And then we got cancer.

Now that chemo is done I feel this huge pressure from myself to get the house in order... in case I get sick again... in case the CT isn't clear and I have to do chemo again... get to do chemo again... I am forever grateful that I was able to have chemo, some people cannot.  And then there is the balancing of 'time with the kids' and 'time with Shawn' and 'time with family' and 'time with friends'... these are the important things that I easily and readily say "Yes, I can!" whenever the invitation and/or opportunity arises... but then I come home to this chaos-house. 

And so, I need to shift my thought process from "get things done" to "wow, look at all we did in this day!" so that I am celebrating the moments and not bumming out about what's still to be done.  Besides, I'd rather not look at this beautiful house and all the blessings (stuff... accumulation... yes, one-time-hoarding) as a downer, but rather work through the tasks with a cheerful heart!

Ah, I feel better.  Thanks for listening.


  1. Yes, a positive outlook can do a world of good. School will still be there if you want. I understand your need for order, but it is so important to live in the moment. It's also a challenge for us worriers and planners.

    I am so glad the real you is coming back. Have patience with yourself, although the posts you write when you don't can be amusing to read. Baby steps.

    I find closings awkward. Just know that I think of you often.


  2. You are doing great! Keep looking at/ for the blessings :)

  3. Juggling emotions is a full time job! I'm so glad you are able to enjoy these moments when it's so easy to let them pass you by! Cheering you on Kris.....

  4. ONE day at a time.....keep up your positive spirit and the great inspiration you are to so many....We love you girl!


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