What you do for me

It is through your comments that I can often find myself realizing what has happened, the tears release and flow, I can process through.  Sometimes I am so fully trusting and laying down this whole thing to God that I don't really find myself reacting to the news.  I hear it,  I understand it as it pertains to me, but I am sort of separate mind from body and it actually worries me that I am not excited enough about good news.  I'm sure this is a coping mechanism and it has benefit to me.  But I also think it is important to release the emotions, experience, feel.  I don't want to be numb.   Reading your comments lets me see / feel / share in your reaction and brings the tears I need (I am a crier when I'm happy, always have been).  It's like I need your comments to spark my own happy reaction to poke out from under the careful arrangements and prayers I have wrapped them in. I can't explain it. Please just accept my thanks and know how important your happiness and encouragement are to me.  The hard stuff I can process through.  The good stuff is actually weirder for me... I don't want to forget how to be pleased for myself when good news comes.  I don't want my heart too guarded to accept good... God uses you in my life and that is so awesome!

Ramble.  I thank you.  [sheepish grin]