- Peace for Shawn and I, for Kyle and Miranda and Braden and Connor, for our parents and siblings and nieces and nephews and inner circle friends watching and hurting as we go through this
- that God would keep soft our children's hearts toward Him through all the emotions of this hard journey
- strength and stamina; physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
- that the cancer shrinks to gone, gone, gone!
- gentle side effects to this second round of chemo
- family unity, harmony, love, strength, joy, happiness
- anything else you feel God puts on your heart

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Week 2, day2: grumpy and dull

Lest you think I am happy and chipper all the time... I assure you, I am not.

Still quoting the positive, still cultivating the glass-half-full, but feeling overwhelmed by four children still doing their children-y things and with their childish ways and not feeling any sort of anything but blah. Had a big, hard sleep this afternoon and woke up grumpy. Short-fuse. Just... everything is loud and bugs me.

The second chemo feels... heavier. Like, I am dull. My skin is dull. My hair is dull. My sparkle is harder to lift up to bubble forth. My smile is even ... meh.

And the children still need their mommy. And my husband deserves his wife to lift him up and encourage him as he does alllll the work here.

Some moments in life are less sparkly, that's okay. This is when I start humming "and joy comes in the morning..." as I send the kids to bed!

God just brought this across my path... it sums up this moment kind of nicely.  


  1. Praying for joy to come in the morning...sending hugs and prayers!

  2. Great quote!
    it's moment by moment for sure, praying for new joy in the morning!

  3. Hang in there, you are doing awesome. Tomorrow is a new day. I only pray that I would have your strength if I was walking in your shoes. Margo

  4. I have the best team ever. Thanks for the encouraging words ladies!!!


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