- Peace for Shawn and I, for Kyle and Miranda and Braden and Connor, for our parents and siblings and nieces and nephews and inner circle friends watching and hurting as we go through this
- that God would keep soft our children's hearts toward Him through all the emotions of this hard journey
- strength and stamina; physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
- that the cancer shrinks to gone, gone, gone!
- gentle side effects to this second round of chemo
- family unity, harmony, love, strength, joy, happiness
- anything else you feel God puts on your heart

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Saturday Status Report

Last night was Family Night.  Our first night since all this started that we were all in the same place at the same time, same room even!  We ate dinner together and then took a roll of pre-made gingerbread dough from the fridge, divided it six ways and gave everyone freedom to create.  I made: me!  That girls got heart, meaning love to give.  It was actually quite fun, no mess and just one cookie for each person which is the perfect treat. Also, with the blessing of dinner being brought for us, we didn't have to clean the kitchen up for that either so straight to congregating on the couches we went.  Lovely.

Today, Saturday, has been weird.  I've had a lot of queasy and icky the last two days now.  It sort of crept up on me and I'm not sure if it's from weaning off the narcotics (so glad to be past those!), or maybe because my epidural is finally wearing down (my tummy still feels like it's rubber and not quite there...weird) or just plain tired and post-op...or maybe the radiation?!  Who knows.  Whatever, today I spent much of the day in my cozy bed, trying to get my right bicep to comfort, revelling in the movement of my right shoulder, feeling like I should eat something but nothing appealed.  Weird day.

What I ate today:

- 4 saltine crackers
- 1 huge (venti) water and another 1/2 venti water
- 1 venti gingerale
- 3 pieces of a small BP Royal pizza (no ham, double pepperoni)
- almost the entire starter Mediterranean salad (minus the onion, thank you)
- 1 cough candy (tickle in my throat... please, Lord, no coughs and colds!!!!)
- 2 pieces of raisin bread (almost the whole thing)
- 1/2 orange, small handful of blueberries tossed in Greek Yogurt
- probably an apple yet and some carrot sticks (I crave, crave, crave carrot sticks, weird!)

Feels like I put the bulk of my energy to eating so I wanted to list my meals.  Plus, this blog is my record of the journey and food is always interesting to note.  I miss the joy of sitting down to eat, of smelling the yummy food smells and tasting the yummy tastes.  I know it will come back, right now, I'm adjusting to missing it.

My prayer requests right now:
Please pray away the queasy.  I hate being queasy.  Please also pray for my incisions and ...guts?!  Whatever it is that feels like I'm going to crumple up into a ball and not make it another step.  Please pray for energy and stamina.  Pray for joy.  Please, please pray for joy for me and for my family.  I choose joy and some moments we need the reinforcements of your extra prayings!  I find weepiness creeping up on me, totally naturally, totally understandable, totally fine... just want to keep an eye on that.  [smile]

Thank you for your continued love and support.  Is your Christmas tree up?  Is it even Christmas in whichever country you are reading this blog from?  Maybe not?  What season is it?!  What something special your family does if you do celebrate Christmas?  Let me know... I feel like I'm just always hogging the microphone over here!

Much love,


  1. Praying the queasiness away!! Ginger is supposed to help so maybe if you eat your gingerbread self you'll feel better :)
    Thanks for reminding me that I want to make gingerbread men this year!
    Keri and I were talking yesterday about missing our Christmas carol sing-a-long at Grandma M's, maybe that should be a new tradition we start at Mom & Dad's. Of course we'll have to borrow the old Canadian Tire newspaper Christmas Carol sheets (circa 1980's!) from Grandma's!!

  2. today in yellowknife it was -42 with the windchill!!! bbrrrrrr... but still managed to get out and get the kids to their sunday school play practice. I always look forward to that! We started a new tradition this year with our family. Every night after dinner, dishes homework etc. etc etc. we sit down on the couch all snuggled together and turn off all the lights except the christmas tree and listen to christmas music. We call it "family music appreciation"!!! I love it!! I also wrap 25 christmas books and starting dec. 1 the 3 kids take turns opening one book a night that we read. Some are fun, some are religious , some are silly but they all love it. Although I have to explain to my 3 yr old son almost every night that they aren't his books to keep and his turn is coming up soon!!
    praying lots for you... that you will feel JOY

  3. The thing that I like to do every year if I can is go to a play or concert of some kind of Christmasy theme. This year I think I want to take in the Lifehaven Christmas Celebration 2012. Where: Abby Arts Centre in Abbotsford. When: Dec 22/12
    at 6:30-9pm. Teresa Trask & Brian Doerksenwith Special Guests Tim Nuefeld, & Brian Thiessen. Put on by LifeHaven Women's Support Society. Appy's & Desserts, with Coffee/Tea/Punch.

  4. Prayers for much joy & happiness. Prayers sharkbite pain turns away & God gives you all the comfort you need. I am happy to hear the reports of the latest biopsy. Great News!

  5. Sorry to hear of all the queasiness. I'll start praying about that right away.

    This is shaping up to be a very low-key, stress free Christmas at our house. We aren't doing gifts for anyone (other than stockings), I'm not sending out Christmas cards (for the first time in 20 years) and instead of baking up a storm I'm just making treats here & there as somebody gets a craving for something. It has been absolutely wonderful and really reinforced what Christmas is all about.


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