- Peace for Shawn and I, for Kyle and Miranda and Braden and Connor, for our parents and siblings and nieces and nephews and inner circle friends watching and hurting as we go through this
- that God would keep soft our children's hearts toward Him through all the emotions of this hard journey
- strength and stamina; physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
- that the cancer shrinks to gone, gone, gone!
- gentle side effects to this second round of chemo
- family unity, harmony, love, strength, joy, happiness
- anything else you feel God puts on your heart

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Chemo: Round 2: Week 1, Day 1

Today's the day.  Let's get it started, shall we!  The pre-meds made it hard for me to fall asleep last night but I snuggled in close with Shawn and let the sweet sound of my husband at rest lull me to sleep.  That man works so hard, I find joy in seeing him slowed down and at rest. 

This morning I woke up feeling solidly rested. I spent some time talking to God. It struck me, how many things He manages and balances and works out and feels and knows and His love and his empathy and His hurt when I hurt and his smile when I have joy.  I thanked Him and I honoured His own emotions through my life experiences (the Bible tells me that I am made in His image, and I am emotional and I know He has emotion and feelings).  I just had a good friend-visit with God.  And I praised and tears flowed from my full and content heart.  And I prayed.  And I got out of bed with a smile in my soul.  

Now I have a list running and am searching for LaLaLuna (my stripey sock monkey, she is Kori&Keri with me at chemo) and mentally running through the next few hours and chemo is a 7hrs chunk looming across my calendar.  I am not afraid.  I am curious.  I am nervous to how my body will react and interact with the pre-meds and this new chemo and medC (the second thing that will run after the chemo bag is done).  I am hopeful and I have peace and I am curious about the logistics of the day in a new chemo room.

And so, off I run, to school appointments that happened to fall on this morning, and finding something that i want to eat (I am down 8lbs in this last week and that's not okay), and packing my day bag which will be heavy on my's life and I am living it and that is awesome!

May you see the blessings in your day, may you find them and feel them!!!

And don't forget to smile!!!

Look at those new little curls on my head!  So soft and sweet, like baby hairs.  I will miss them if they go.  I will love them if they come back. 


  1. You are beautiful! Will be thinking of you extra today and am curious to know how it will all go!

  2. You are surrounded by my prayers and I know the prayers of many others today. I am always amazed by your positive attitude as you face these chemo days. Thank you for sharing your beautiful smile it is a good reminder for me to face my day with a smile. I love you my friend!!!

  3. We are holding you in our prayers today - each and every one of you... knowing that God is carrying each of you through this day, praying for comfort and peace, for an ease over this procedure today and in the days to follow. sending hugs.

  4. I just put you on our church's prayer chain before coming over here to read your latest post. I'll be thinking of you today, praying for you and looking forward to finding out how your day went. ((hugs))

  5. Hang in there XO you have a great attitude.

  6. I'll be praying for your day. For God's closeness to you and that you will feel Him ever present.
    I love how you write too....just sayin'. You have a way of dumping your soul out onto paper (a.k.a. the blog) and inspiring me and others as you tell it as it is. Thanks for posting a pic too. You are beautiful....with and without the cute little curls.

  7. Hi Kristin, I love you. I continue to pray for you with hope and trust in the Lord.

  8. Praying that the 7hours flies by; for safe travels to and from Vancouver today and for little or no side effects.

  9. Hugging and holding you close in our hearts always!
    with so much love...Uncle Norm & Auntie Sharon

  10. Hi Kristen, your strength amazes me, praying for you always, hope you had a good book to read during those 7 hours. Lots of love from our family to yours,
    Leanna, Richard, Nic & Kim

  11. Some days words fail me, and my prayers fall silently in tears. I know that God hears my heart for my sister. I'm so thankful in those moments for praying friends in those moments. And so thankful for my sisters words, when mine seem to come out all jumbled. Thank you friends!
    I felt extra thankful and peaceful today Kris after our early-morning text chat. Praying for no side effects. Love you!


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