- Peace for Shawn and I, for Kyle and Miranda and Braden and Connor, for our parents and siblings and nieces and nephews and inner circle friends watching and hurting as we go through this
- that God would keep soft our children's hearts toward Him through all the emotions of this hard journey
- strength and stamina; physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
- that the cancer shrinks to gone, gone, gone!
- gentle side effects to this second round of chemo
- family unity, harmony, love, strength, joy, happiness
- anything else you feel God puts on your heart

Tuesday, October 1, 2013


My local oncologist told me that in a trial you, the patient, hold all the power.  To participate, to continue, to stop.  But is it really a choice if the other option is aggressive cancer taking over your body at an alarming rate?  In a counselling course I once took we learned that in choice you can choose A or B or nothing.  Remember, choosing nothing is also a choice.   In this case the choice seems to be trust or not trust or try to figure it out.  I feel ill-equipped to figure it circles back to chemo or die.  The nuances of the choosing to be part of a trial or not are really moot.  I want to be in God's plan, and so I know He'll work it out as it should.  I won't worry. I don't worry.  But Shawn and I have to discuss and decide and choose and try and figure out these impossible things.  There is a form to sign.  That is a huge responsibility.  And it makes me feel so spent. I am rambling.  I just need to write it out.  Exhausted.  


  1. Praying today for you and Shawn and the decisions you have to make now. Praying for your children's hearts too. Rachel R.

  2. Praying for you and your family, Kristin.
    Emily G


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