- Peace for Shawn and I, for Kyle and Miranda and Braden and Connor, for our parents and siblings and nieces and nephews and inner circle friends watching and hurting as we go through this
- that God would keep soft our children's hearts toward Him through all the emotions of this hard journey
- strength and stamina; physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
- that the cancer shrinks to gone, gone, gone!
- gentle side effects to this second round of chemo
- family unity, harmony, love, strength, joy, happiness
- anything else you feel God puts on your heart

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

What you do for me

It is through your comments that I can often find myself realizing what has happened, the tears release and flow, I can process through.  Sometimes I am so fully trusting and laying down this whole thing to God that I don't really find myself reacting to the news.  I hear it,  I understand it as it pertains to me, but I am sort of separate mind from body and it actually worries me that I am not excited enough about good news.  I'm sure this is a coping mechanism and it has benefit to me.  But I also think it is important to release the emotions, experience, feel.  I don't want to be numb.   Reading your comments lets me see / feel / share in your reaction and brings the tears I need (I am a crier when I'm happy, always have been).  It's like I need your comments to spark my own happy reaction to poke out from under the careful arrangements and prayers I have wrapped them in. I can't explain it. Please just accept my thanks and know how important your happiness and encouragement are to me.  The hard stuff I can process through.  The good stuff is actually weirder for me... I don't want to forget how to be pleased for myself when good news comes.  I don't want my heart too guarded to accept good... God uses you in my life and that is so awesome!

Ramble.  I thank you.  [sheepish grin]

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