Having trouble making words work.
This morning saw us up and early to an appointment with the lung specialist guy. He was very nice, my blowing test was good and lungs healthy (except for the 'shadows'), apparently I have no symptoms and my current cough is not related to anything (seasonal allergies).
The news was that if the kidney is cancer, there is less than 1% that the lungs aren't cancer. Alternately, when the kidney is found to be cancer-free, the lungs shall be cancer-free also!
Can I get an amen!!!!!
Shawn and I are exhausted, dazed, confused, trying to make sense of all this. Trying to maintain a positive attitude. Trying to keep things normal around here for the kids.
Tonight is the eve of our 18th wedding anniversary. It strikes me as significant that 18 years ago today we were on the verge of a grande adventure... and here, 18 years later, we are on the precipice of a big adventure, too. Though this one is super scary and that one was wrapped in dreams and tulle and royal icing on a fantastical wedding cake.
Pray for us. Please.
Wednesday: CT scan, please pray that this new scan will be even clearer than the last and will be even more positive in showing just how manageable that tumour is... heck, pray God is shrinking it to gone even right this minute.
Pain management: please pray pain free for me. The pain in my shoulder is very hard to manage, the nice local pharmacist has suggested I ask my GP for a patch to maintain the meds better. I will do that. Pray God heals whatever mess is in the shoulder even in this moment.
Surgery: I won't lie, thinking about the major surgery and the huge incision has me on the verge of puking. I am afraid of the pain of waking up to that shark bite across my gut. I am afraid of the pain of my shoulder blinding me and making it too hard to handle the pain of the surgery. And I just don't even allow myself to think of the other scary aspects of surgery. Just pray, okay?
My husband: Please pray peace for my dear husband. Shawn is amazing and his heart is breaking to watch me in pain, he wants to make this better and I can't imagine how hard it must be to be the spouse on a journey such as this.
Our kids: Oh man. My heart. Please. Pray peace for these four wonderful kids, ask that God will keep soft their hearts, and still their minds, and let them remain somehow blissfully naive through this.
Our extended family: The precious moments that cancer has given us are amazing and priceless... I would not trade those for the world... and now, cancer can leave so we can move forward in love and togetherness.
We really covet your prayers. Knowing that here are so many kind hearts caring and praying for us is such a huge help to us, to me, to this crazy mess that is just so surreal. We know that God is using this situation for good. We know that God loves us and cares for us. We know and feel God's peace even in the toughest moments... so keep up those prayers. We really, really, really want them.
Thank you Lord that you love us. Thank you that you care for Shawn and I and our kids. We thank you for medical science and technology and meds. We pray wisdom and discernment all over this situation and we ask for your divine healing over Kristin's body. You have told us that the situation is serious, but not hopeless, and we thank you for hope.
always praying
ReplyDeleteOh Kristin, you are on my heart. I am praying.
ReplyDeleteprayers & hugs...and more prayers...and more hugs...
ReplyDeleteI love you!
My prayers are with you also, Kristin. I know in my life with cancer, God has never let me down. He is ever present and has His healing hand on me always. He has promised never to give us more than we can handle. You will always be in His care. GOD LOVES YOU.
ReplyDeleteKimberly`s mom ---Melba
Kristin & Shawn,
ReplyDeleteMyra told me Friday. You're in my prayers. God is greater than...
Gerry
Praying, praying, praying!
ReplyDeleteYou can count on me to pray you through this entire journey.
ReplyDeleteWe are praying for you Kristin. Wanting to give you a big hug :-)
ReplyDeleteThank you for your specific list of prayer requests. We have been praying for you all daily since we heard the news.
ReplyDeleteWe are all going through these emotions together. When the sadness and fear sets in we will pray and we will hold on to one another. Any time you need to know I'm praying, just tell me. I promise, I will stop everything and pray!
ReplyDeleteI love you!!
Just praying that God will bind you close to Himself that you never doubt that He is with you. May He grant you the desires of your heart. He is always good.
ReplyDeletePraying for you across the miles! I can't imagine the crazy storm of emotions you are going through, and still having to keep it together for your kids. I'll be praying for you for peace and inner strength - and ultimately, healing!
ReplyDeleteHi Kirsten,
ReplyDeleteIt's Robin, Rena's friend from Armstrong. My heart goes out to you girl. I know all to well what the diagnosis of cancer feels like. I totally experienced the waves of emotion that you wrote about. I will be praying for you and asking that God cover you with His blanket of peace. He is very near to you. I am celebrating this month 24 years since my first diagnosis and 10 years since my second. I want you to know that if you ever need to talk to a fellow survivor, I am here. Thank-you for sharing your journey, it reminds me of the important things. I am praying for you, your husband and four children. Even though we are miles away my hearts prayers are very close. Love Robin
You have an amazing way with words Kristin, thanks for sharing your story. This post certainly shows your depth of faith and love for your family. I will be praying with and for you during this time.
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