Very rambling post, fair warning.
Thursday (Nov 1) morning was too real. I had my first hospital visit as a cancer patient. That was... too much. The excellent news is that my bladder is clear, praise God!!! The other good news was the surgeon's comments about my kidney tumour, "hm, that's small, that's really small, I'm surprised they saw that... I don't see how that would have traveled..." which was lovely. Praising God for the two victories today. My GP gave me some new pain meds for the wicked shoulder pain, it's waking me in the night and keeping me from resting in the day. Am supposed to be walking 30 minutes a day to prep for surgery... if I didn't know I had cancer would I feel as tired? Probably yes, the emotion of this huge week is exhausting.
Today is our eldest son's 14th birthday. I am so excited for him and am so proud and thrilled and just plain happy about that. The panic comes in waves but yesterday afternoon was so very normal, a blessing. This morning my Mom took me shopping to pick up pizza and a DQ ice cream cake for his party tonight. Normal birthday day stuff, lovely! Thanks Mom for helping schlep all the groceries, such an inconvenience to not be able to use my right arm much these days.
I'm also feeling a little overwhelmed as people are finding out and sending love. Receiving the love is... overwhelming. In a good way, yes. You folks are so kind and gracious and generous and encouraging and prayer warrior-ing! I love it! But I am just finding hours in this week that I can't even remember being part of. I assume the whirlwind will slow a little and Shawn and I will catch our breath a little... just say yes. [smile]
Please pray that the pain in my shoulder would be released and gone for good. Pray that the bone doctor will see an easy fix to the shoulder mystery. Please pray that the upcoming appointments will book soon and produce clear and "good news" results!
My surgery date for removal of my left kidney is tentative for November 14. Before then I will have another CT scan for better pictures of the kidney, a bone scan, meet with lung specialist twice, blood work, pre-op appointment and possibly radiation on my shoulder. Sounds like a busy week and a half... good thing there's so much Halloween candy around here to keep us going! [wink]
Coveting your prayers,
Kristin
Praise God for good news in the midst of the storm! Praying for continued strength for you as you run the gauntlet of all the upcoming testing. You have my express permission to eat as much chocolate as you deem necessary. ;)
ReplyDeleteSonya
Kristin you amaze me with your perserverance and positive outlook! Thinking of you 24-7 and sending up prayers throughout each day.
ReplyDeleteSo thankful we can trust in a loving God who has a plan for you. How people get through this without faith is a complete mystery to me.
xo
7am...LOVE YOU
ReplyDeleteCher
Love the idea of a blog for info sharing - thank you so much.
ReplyDeleteAs a gov't employee, I cannot give details (they r kinda particular about these things!)...but wanna tell you that I have incorporated YOU into my latest system password - I have to use it SO often during the day, so it reminds me to send up heart-felt prayer moments lots at work :)
(Jesus also orchestrates the little things ;)
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