- Peace for Shawn and I, for Kyle and Miranda and Braden and Connor, for our parents and siblings and nieces and nephews and inner circle friends watching and hurting as we go through this
- that God would keep soft our children's hearts toward Him through all the emotions of this hard journey
- strength and stamina; physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
- that the cancer shrinks to gone, gone, gone!
- gentle side effects to this second round of chemo
- family unity, harmony, love, strength, joy, happiness
- anything else you feel God puts on your heart

Friday, February 22, 2013

[stunned] I did it.

I just can't believe it but I did it.  I gave myself a needle.  It's pre-loaded, you just have to get the poke done... that's the gross part to be honest.  I washed my hands, I did the alcohol wipe, gave myself a large target area between the islands of purpley-green-blue archipelago across my entire tummy... and I got the needle out of the package... and let the alcohol dry so it wouldn't sting... and then I shored up really quick courage... and set the needle down... and then took a breath, said another thought-prayer on top of the prayer at the start of this whole mess... and did it.  I did it.  I can't believe I did it.  I don't want to ever do it again ... for the next 6 months... but I did it.  And Nurse said the first poke was the hardest... so I'll keep that in mind tomorrow, too... and I don't want to think about that I did it... but I did it on the kidney-surgery side... which is still numb 14 weeks later... and thank you Lord for that big numb silver lining that makes pants waistlines a nuisance but makes sticking yourself with a needle easier... and I know there are diabetic kids and folks that do this their whole life... but it's one more shoring of courage and I feel like I've shored up a lot a lot a lot these past four months... but I did it and it's done for this whole next 24 hours.  I did it.  I am shaky from the chemo and I am shaky more from that I did it.  I did it.  Wow. And I even was able to do it slow and count to five like she said... I did it.  I am just shocked.  Wow.


  1. Don't mess with Kristin, she's a powerhouse!!
    Good job!!

  2. Way to go!! I knew you could do it!

  3. I love that you gave yourself a certificate!!

  4. Angel Forrest FooksFebruary 22, 2013 at 4:12 PM

    Wtg Kristen. You can do anything. :)

  5. I was right last night, in my faith in you to get past 'shudder' and on to 'doer' ;)
    You rock, as per usual xox


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