Identity confusion

Trying to balance what I have energy for, rationing the day, focusing on being mommy and being me in this family, not able to just get things done. Learning to adjust or do things differently. Such a learning curve. Figuring things out on a playing field that's changed daily depending in chemo or who has what germs. Hugs, no hugs. Connecting without face time. Learning to be okay with new ways of doing things. My goal is to come out of this not having fallen too far off course... allowing the time and unfolding of whatever the new course may look like. Understanding that days and life and all is fluid, the course is ever shifting. That's okay, too.