Each day that I wait to start chemo I am more recovered from my surgery and radiation. That's how I'm looking at it... but I do jump every time the phone rings, scrambling to get to the call display before the kids do, hoping and fretting at once, wondering when the chemo room will call.
Practicing my patience... I am not a very patient patient. [eye roll] I do feel that my strength is renewing, every-so-slowly, each day I do feel closer to recovered than I did 7 weeks ago!!! [wink]
Isaiah 40:31
But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; They shall
mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They
shall walk and not faint.
New King James version Some of my family members are even less patient patients than I am... pray peace for them as they wait for this show to 'get on the road', too! I've said it before, I'll say it again... cancer came to our entire family on October 29th. That's a lot of people whose years have been hijacked in some way or another. I really struggle with feeling bad about that... not guilt so much, there is no way I even remotely 'did this'... but... it's just a lot of lives thrown off kilter. Alternately, it's a lot of lives included on the adventure in God's greatness, right?!?! RIGHT!
I told son4 about the port and explained chemo to him... when I told him about the port he made a vomit-y face... that cracked me up! Thanks kid, I feel a little that way myself, too! Kids are good medicine!
I admit, my patience is being tested and I didn't have much to begin with :(
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"Patience to wait does not come from suffering long for what we lack but from sitting long in what we have"
Thanks Beth Moore!
Oh man - that sucks. And what is the most terrible is the increasing numbers of people who need to use the chemo room. I'm sorry you're even on that list :( But still praying for a call asap.
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